If you had suicidal intention the current year...keep hanging on.

Life was never easy for most of us. Many of us would have thought of leaving this world and giving up on everything.

But we managed to pull through. Tough times don't last, tough man does. Keep hanging on.

When firearms were declared to be illegal, that was when assholes start to pop-up on the society.

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The older you are, the more assholes you will meet.
If they are obviously against the law, talk to them using the law (even though it is costly and draggy).

The law isn't protecting everyone. It is only protecting the rich; if you don't have the money to hire a lawyer, you're literally powerless.

You'll have to agree how triads work in HK...being cost effective and efficient, 1 bullet, 1 gun and just few hours to exterminate the pest. This way, assholes of the society gets eliminated, slowly.

Year 2014/2015 - The two years, with five person on my list. If only it is legal to assassinate someone...

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Went back to tekong today, passed through Scorpion Coy and it brought back memories.

And my unlucky friend got enlisted into 2nd coy - What a joke :D

As usual, the water quality is HORRIGIBLE. I wish I can scratch my throat now.

Dad passed away abruptly on the 27th September...close to midnight.

Was waiting downstairs to avoid the costly parking fees, and received a call from my mum, saying that dad just suffered a heart attack. Rushed up to the ward in tears, only to see the paramedics conducting resuscitation. Half an hour later, they declared dad has left. I've never teared or cry in a long while. I thought I'll never cry again, after her, but this incident showed me otherwise.

The funeral was done quickly, and allowed me to see who cared, and who didn't. The chats with my cousin and uncle made me realised that there are many things in life that is not within our control, regardless of your belief in locus of control. Yes, I tried my best to keep things in place, It was tiring and at many times, it is not in my favour.

I thought life will get better after dad left (don't have to rush around like when he is around), but it didn't... When a person lives for the moment without plans for the future, people around you will have to clear the mess for you. Getting involved in a lawsuit with a darned director of Temasek Polytechnic coupled with assignments that takes a shitload amount of time to clear is affecting me quite a bit.

Time-check: 6:10am. Just completed my PSY311 lab report. It's time to collapse for 12 hours to regain my energy.

All the problems that I'm facing now, will not kill me; it'll make me stronger. I'm a survivor, and I will survive.

-Rant over-

I may not be able to give you everything in the world, but I'll not let anyone take that smile off your face.

Signing off,
Joachim

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Life has never been this tiring before. Not because of work, but issues that is beyond my capabilities.

An individual is required to take up responsibilities during the process of growing up, but when responsibilities grow so quickly and you do not have the capability to handle it...it's overwhelming.

My lecturer taught us "Locus of Control", either you control your life or your life controls you. As much as I wish to control my life, it's really beyond my capabilities and it is suffocating.

He is still in a state of delirium. Everyone tells me to forgive him, do they know what they are saying? Outsiders do not know how it feels like to be in my shoes, but seem to enjoy giving unproductive advices and testing my patience. I'm at my limit, I sincerely hope that people who have nothing better to say can shut their trap.

I've ran out of ideas to vent my frustrations and anger. Perhaps, ending the unfilial jerk's life will be satisfying for me. However, the sacrificial ratio will be 1:4.

Yeap, holidays are over and there's no proper rest. Thorough renovation, rewiring and being on the road for several hours a day - all for the sake of a better tomorrow.

Tough times don't last, tough men does.

I'm a survivor.