Dad passed away abruptly on the 27th September...close to midnight.

Was waiting downstairs to avoid the costly parking fees, and received a call from my mum, saying that dad just suffered a heart attack. Rushed up to the ward in tears, only to see the paramedics conducting resuscitation. Half an hour later, they declared dad has left. I've never teared or cry in a long while. I thought I'll never cry again, after her, but this incident showed me otherwise.

The funeral was done quickly, and allowed me to see who cared, and who didn't. The chats with my cousin and uncle made me realised that there are many things in life that is not within our control, regardless of your belief in locus of control. Yes, I tried my best to keep things in place, It was tiring and at many times, it is not in my favour.

I thought life will get better after dad left (don't have to rush around like when he is around), but it didn't... When a person lives for the moment without plans for the future, people around you will have to clear the mess for you. Getting involved in a lawsuit with a darned director of Temasek Polytechnic coupled with assignments that takes a shitload amount of time to clear is affecting me quite a bit.

Time-check: 6:10am. Just completed my PSY311 lab report. It's time to collapse for 12 hours to regain my energy.

All the problems that I'm facing now, will not kill me; it'll make me stronger. I'm a survivor, and I will survive.

-Rant over-

I may not be able to give you everything in the world, but I'll not let anyone take that smile off your face.

Signing off,
Joachim